Guilt

I've never felt more guilty before in my whole entire 19 years of life. My parents have always been supportive of decisions I've made even when outcomes of my decisions proved to be nothing but disappointments. I know they don't want to put too much stress on me because they know I'm still drowning in my own pool of depression. My dad is always asking me why I look so gloomy and my mum always making and buying my favourite dishes nowadays. It's not making me feel any better. I wish they'll scream at me, beat me up or throw me out of the house instead of being so forgiving.